Fear

I have been completely consumed by fear. Fear of many things actually. I am unsure of how I arrived at this place of fear, or how it has managed to run my life. I've not been writing as much...been in a bit of a transition lately. Not only physical (moving) but also emotional and spiritual.

I don't know where else to go or what to do. Do I leap off of my stepping stone and fly into my own? Or...do I remain on the stepping stone when it's actually starting to feel like quicksand. I found something that was lost and now, due to fear, I am running away from it with Mercury's winged feet. I'm fearful of actually getting what I want. Being fulfilled in every way imaginable. I am silently suffering with decisions that have to be made. Ok...so it's really my need to control and not the need to actually make a decision.

I'm working hard to go with the flow and not be overly analytical. I'm working hard to not be fearful. To face the thing I fear the most, until I no longer fear it. To actually take a risk and trust in my intuition. Which is the most difficult thing I've done.